Do you ever get that feeling that this might be your last breath? That some universal force is trying to take away your soul? That you might die the very next second if you do not wake up from your sleep?
I just felt the same. Woke up from sleep after a bit of struggle. It felt like my soul was about to leave my body. It felt like I might die and no one would get to know about it. It felt like if I dont wake up I will die in my sleep. The feeling was supercrazy.
I really don’t know what caused this. But it was petrifying.
We don’t really realise for how long the trauma stays with us. It’s the experiences like these which makes it evident that the healing isn’t done completely and there is still something left to be done right.
Even after taking heavy dose of medicines I am not able to sleep. My body wants to. But my soul doesn’t. Or maybe it’s my mind. I really don’t know.
I just wish and hope the trauma fades away with the passage of time. I don’t want to stay stuck in the same loop.
My only wish this year is that I want to move ahead in life and leave all the traumatic memories behind.
And this time I don’t even want to know Why it happened, Who triggered what.
I just want to move away from the place and the negative memories asap.
I hope The Universe grants me my wish this year.
Though this wish has been the wish for so many years now.
Its going to be my birthday in the next three days. And I have made my wish to the universe.
Wish me Luck!